Monday, June 23, 2008

offended

Although this issue took place several months ago, it still resonates within me. It is with my intention to pen this unforgettable experience as a means of 'letting go', in the hopes of getting over this episode.

Last year, the college organized a mock interview for Oxbridge applicants. There were not many who applied, but among those who did, it included myself and S.

I never really talk to S nor do I know her on an acquaintance extent. Apart from the first day of college, where she was scrounging for people to buy seasoned parking tickets to qualify for a bulk-buying discount, there has not been any dialogue between us since.

There were times where she would initiate a conversation, but it was solely based on university applications and admission tests. Being the helpful individual that I believe I am, there have been two occasions where I have lent her a helping hand only to be bitten by her in return.

The first was borrowing her my LNAT textbook. Despite her cognizance that we are not on the best of terms, she bared her thick skin and asked to borrow it anyway. I allowed it on the basis of establishing goodwill with her. But that was short-lived as she reverted to her 'old ways' soonafter.

The next incident was sharing with her my experience during the Oxford interview. Although I had intentionally made up many things which was did not take place at the interview, she should have at least realized that I have no intentions to make enemies with her. Again, disappointingly, all the good faith was gone in vain.

It manifested itself during the waiting period of the interview where she made an offensive and insensitive remark about my relationship between my 'older girlfriend' and I. In her exact words, she said my relationship was 'bad for the woman' - in other words, a disadvantage for the female party involved in a relationship with a younger men.

With reference to that statement, I would like to ask her if the relationship between Ashton Kutcher and Demi Moore is really 'bad for the woman'; or if the then relationship between Justin Timberlake and Cameron Diaz caused a disadvantage for the latter party?

I doubt anyone of us would have an unequivocal answer to those questions, despite the lives of the above individuals constantly scrutinized by the paparazzi. That said, what makes S think she knows any more about my personal relationship than she does about renowned celebrities?

Furthermore, is she even in a position to spew a comment such as the above? It would be justified if she has or had a relationship akin to mine. Such arrogance and insensitivity is clearly reproachable.

I suppose some people will never learn. But it often makes me wonder why I seem to attract negative energy from people. While working at GUESS there was K, then in college there was S and T, who seemed to have successfully convinced A, J and Z of their personal sentiments towards me.

Notwithstanding the above, I just want to say that I do not care about it anymore. We will probably not be seeing each other in the near future, and if we do, these people will be nothing more than a complete stranger in my eyes.